I have learned that I do not always have to know what to do or where to go next. Except for routine things like getting out of bed, showering and eating , the truth is I don't usually know exactly where I should go or what I should do next. Not working has left me without the routine that I used and depended on for so many years. When I work now it is usually for only a few days or a week at a time. During those times I find myself falling back into the routine, and I have to admit it is a comfortable feeling. Only now I don't get in my car and go to the office to meet with clients, instead I let dogs and cats out, feed them, water them and spend the rest of the time just loving them. In many ways a more pleasant thing to do than what I was used to doing. My former job involved a lot of crisis, most people don't come to see a therapist because everything is going so well. There was a lot of chaos in my work, now there is little to none in my life. Unless of course I create it, and I try really hard not to do that. I don't want to run on adrenalin anymore. The time is right for me for Peace, Love and Understanding. The time is is right To Be Myself. Evening Thoughts.
Saturday, March 5th, 2011.........10:49p.m.
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