Note To Self

It seems there are some lessons that I need to keep learning.  Worrying and trying so hard to make something happen are two of them.  I still seem to feel that if I worry enough about something I can affect the outcome.  And come on, if I really CARE about the outcome of something I should worry, and the same goes for you, right?........Wrong.  I think the word care, plays a big part in this logic of mine.  It feels to me that I don't really care if I don't worry, and if others don't actively worry, then I feel they don't care.  So, after trying, forcing, pleading, fighting, folding, stapling and mutilating, I finally give up and stop trying to force something to happen the way it should, (the way I think is best) I finally throw my hands in the air and unflex my  ridgid muscles and say, at least to my self, WHATEVER, then I begin to "let things happen" instead of trying so hard to make them happen.  I relax, I give up.  And you know what???  Things work out anyway, sometimes even better than when I was expecting.  I wonder why I have to keep relearning this lesson.  That was why I wrote this note to myself and shared it with you.

Thursday, March 17th, 2011..........11:03p.m.