I like this quote and it is something I am aspireing to. Perhaps I am closer than I think. I may not have always lived well, but then who has? I am laughing more often than I did a few years again, and there were times when I did laugh often, but honestly, not that often. I think I fear laughing, someting about being to happy.........that voice in the back in the back of head saying "whoa, don't be to happy; you know what could happen". O.K. let me take that one step further......what could happen, what will happen?? Whatever is going to happen is going to happen anyway, whether I laugh or not, so I might as well laugh whenever I can. The old messages that go so far back, over 6 decades back "What are you laughing about? Get that smile off your face. Life is hard. Be serious." Then of course there was "Don't cry. I will give you something to cry about". What messages we plant in our childrens head. When I read that back, what I hear is don't laugh, don't cry, don't feel your feelings. If I did this to you my children, I am so sorry.
Sometimes we forget that we are saying what we have heard all of our lives. That is after all how we learn to talk. Our first words are words that are repeated to us over and over. I have learned some lessons in my 70 something years, one being; makes my words sweet, because someday you may have to eat them.
Did I love much,? Probably no........as I mentioned last night that was very risky for me and I was to full of fear. All things I can still change.
Manana
Tuesday, March 22nd, 2011............11:07p.m.
Happy Birthday J.R.
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