Serenity

I have a lot more serenity than I used to.  Sometimes I am unaware how much of it I do have.  I remember trying so hard to achieve serinity.  I hadn't learned yet working for serenity was a lot like trying really hard to fall asleep, it doesn't work that way.  I become aware of my serenity when I am not thinking about it or working hard for it.  It usually happens when I am alone or with someone that I am very comfortable with.  For me serenity is a by product of my living well, taking care of myself and being grateful for what and who is in my life.  When I think of my life I have be so grateful for the people who inhabit it, not just the people that I see everyday but the ones in my thoughts and my memories.  I have "enough".  All of my young life I didn't just think there wasn't enough, there really wasn't enough.  As a child there wasn't enough of anything to go around, especially time or affection.  Children are amazing they know that what you love you give time and attention to.  I believe that many adults, especially older people are what I call "skin deprived".  That simply means they arn't touched enough, arn't hugged or held enough.  For a lot of people when sex stops, touching stops and then you are left "skin deprived" and at some level of your consciousness you miss it, you know that you need that and a part of you withers and dies without it.  I am grateful tonight for my children, grandchildren, all small children who hug me, for my friends who hug me and give me warmth.

Saturday, February 26th, 2011............11:02p.m.