I heard this quote last night while watching the Academy Awards on TV. I don't understand what there is about me that seems to pick up these quotes, even when I am supposedly not looking or listening for them.
Perhaps I just hear what I am supposed to hear. I have often carried a much heavier load than I needed to. Sometimes whatever load I was carrying I didn't carry right. When I was pregnant with my children I never felt I was carrying a heavy load, well maybe the last few weeks, but even then I had a feeling of excitement and expectation during those times. Often I have carried loads, (worries) that were not really mine, these are really heavy ones and I don't think there is any right way to carry them, you should just give these loads to the person who they belong to. But what if you feel if that the person they belong to arn't capable of carrying them? And you care for that person, do you carry their load for them then? I don't know the answer to this question, however, if I decide to carry someone else's load I should do it willingly and with a light heart, not begrudgingly as I sometimes do. I am not sure where this martyr part of me comes from. I believe that we don't do anything in life that doesn't give us some kind of payoff and I am not sure what kind of payoff I get or am looking for when I find myself in this position. Just food for thought, will write on a happier note tonight, at least I hope so.
Monday, February 28th, 2011.............2:41p.m.
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