Hypocrisy

Hypocrisy is something I really, really dislike.  Yet it is something that I am guilty of.  According to one dictionary definition this is what a hyprocite is:  "A person who acts in contradiction with their stated beliefs and feelings".  I do that, not often, but there is one topic where I catch myself doing it all the time.

I believe in "Freedom of Choice" when it comes to child bearing.  I believe that the woman should make the choice to carry a child or not.  It is not my business and I would support her whatever that choice would be.
EXCEPT, when it is one of children or now grandchildren.  If it is my daughter or granddaughter then I would like to see that child born and I want to hold and know him/her,  I justify and rationalize this desire all the time.  Things like "we are a large family and if the pregnant woman/girl can't or isn't ready to care for a child at this time we will help you, or do it for you".

This doesn't change the fact that what I am doing/saying/feeling is hyprocritical.  I was watching "The View". one of my favorite shows on TV this morning.  The topic comes up quite often there, usually concerning politics; some Congressman or other person is always trying to impose his view, or his Party's view on everyone else.  As soon as that happens I can feel my body and brain go into fight mode.  Under my breath I mutter "who the hell gives you the right to tell women what they can and can't do".  Then when the anger subsides a little,
I reinstate "EXCEPT for my family, all our children should be born".

I am sure that my perception is coloured by becoming a Mother at age 16.  When I first found out that I was pregnant I would have wished away the pregnancy if I could have.  I so much wanted to finish school.  But had that happened then Michael wouldn't be here.  And anyone that knows Michael, or even knows of him, knows what a loss that would be.  The world would be without "First Born".  So, sorry I am pro choice just not for my family........and that probably does make me a hyprocrite.

Wednesday, February 8th, 2012........10:53p.m.