Feeling Fragile

I am not feeling fragile tonight, so it safe for me to write about it.  Dictionaries are almost my favorite book; right up there with "The Language Of Letting Of Letting Go".  And according to my dictionary here are a couple examples of what fragile means:  easily broken, shattered, or damaged; delicate; brittle or frail.  Lacking in substance or force.

This could be such a long blog but because it is late it won't be.  When I was a young woman, even a girl, I thought fragile applied mostly to old people and perhaps babies.  Yet as a 70 something woman I don't feel as fragile as I did years ago.  In many ways I am tougher ( I think perhaps "tough" is the opposite of "fragile")
at least it is for me tonight.  I am looking at the words from the dictionary. "Easily broken"....... bones maybe are more easily broken but more important things like my feelings, my heart, and my spirit are not nearly so easily broken.  Shattered; I was shattered in my teens, my 20s and possibly early 30s, it takes a lot more to shatter me today. Damaged: whatever damage was done to me so many years ago, I don't damage as easily today. Delicate: not sure about that one, possiblily I was never delicate.  Brittle or frail:  Like I said earlier, possibly my bones.

"Lacking In Substance Or Force"  I don't  #$%^ing think so.  I have much less to lose today than I did 30 years, even 10 years ago.  I no doubt am more discriminating about what and where I put my substance or force into.  But I have substance and force and I have it in abundance.

Midnight Thoughts

Wednesday, February 15th, 11:58p.m.