Friday, September 9, 2011

Sometimes..............I Am Speechless, Sometimes I Am Frozen

That is how I have been feeling the last few days.  I don't like this feeling, I guess no one does.  I feel uncertain about my footing.  I place each foot carefully in front of me, aware of my uncertainty.  A feeling like vertigo every time I move.  I don't want to talk, I worry the words might out wrong, get mixed up and rearranged in their delivery.  I think maybe I can drive safely to Paisley but not Port Elgin.  I may be o.k. for 15 minutes but not for an hour.  My face feels kind of numb, I am not sure about my expression.  I kind of shiver, put on a sweater, within minutes I am too warm, remover the sweater.  I am to tired to stand.  I lay down, but almost immediately get back up.  I am full of fear, doubt and free floating anxieties. I am afraid that I may shatter.  I can't tell you in words so I write it here.

Afternoon Thoughts And Feelings

Friday, Spetember 9th, 2011............2:00p.m.

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