Freedom (Again)

Tonight I will attempt to write about freedom again, hopefully without having an anxiety again.  I never did find  the blog that sent me into the anxiety attack.  I think perhaps I always desired freedom too much.  I had felt so restricted for so much of my life.  For many years I waited for someone to give me freedom.  I will share my secret with you:  No one can give you permission to be free, that is something you have to claim for yourself.  My quest for freedom led me to some strange places.  It is strange that I felt that I must fight for freedom; that is a lot like eating to lose weight, or drinking alcohol to be sober.  Eventually I learned that freedom is something that you must claim.  Yet even when I did claim it there were times when I still felt controlled.  Quite often I gave my freedom away, perhaps it scared me.  There were times when I ran from a bad situation just to run to a worse one.  These were learning times and perhaps nessessary.  I looked in my favorite reference book and found it's defination of freedom.  I will share that with you.

April 18th
"Many of us were oppressed and victimized as children.  As adults we may continue to keep ourselves oppressed.
Some of us don't know that we hold the key to our own freedom.  That key is honoring ourselves, and taking care of ourselves.
We can say what we mean, and mean what we say.
We can stop waiting for others to give us what we need and take responsibility for ourselves.  When we do, the gates to freedom will swing wide.
Walk Through."

"Today, I will understand that I hold the key to my freedom.  I will stop participating in my oppression and
victimization.  I will take responsibility for myself, and let others do as they may."

I like that explanation of freedom and I hope you do.

Friday, April 15th, 2011..................9:31p.m.