I arrived home yesterday about 7:00p.m. It is nice to be home again, but I surprised myself that I enjoyed my stay in Mildmay so much. I did enjoy the alone time, some times that worries me, perhaps I was meant to be a hermit. Yet I was pleased with myself, I am glad that I don't need outside stimulus to much. I don't think I am unique but perhaps a little bit different. I find that when I am alone structure becomes more important, it gives my day more form. Checking for E Mails and looking at Facebook account was something I did every morning while drinking my coffee, Watching the View at 11:00 a.m. was another, then reading and playing on the computer until 3:00p.m. when the television is back on for afternoon shows. Of course there was letting Lois out for her pees and other business and cleaning up after myself is in there somewhere. TV off at 11:00p.m. and one last one the computer, then bed by midnight, where I do my nighttime routine, which is a blog in itself.
Being alone makes me conscious of myself and my idiosyncrasies, of which I seem to have quite a few.
One of those being that when I have been alone for about 48 hours I begin to not want to go out, even telephone calls start to annoy me, perhaps annoy isn't the right word, it is more like they interrupt my own strict structure that I seem to impose upon myself during those times. Because I am aware of the dangers of this I make myself go out everyday, even if it just to the store and I make telephone calls. I fear that I could easily become agoraphobic, perhaps I already am. hopefully not, hopefully I have finally learned to be comfortable with myself as company. Geez I analyze everything to death. Anyway it was good to spend 18 days with Lois and it is good to be home. IT'S ALL GOOD.
Afternoon Thoughts
Tuesday, April 24th, 2012.........2:00p.m.
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