Once again I am using a friends computer. Seeing as my computer won't bring up my blog, I feel like I should using this time to write something profound, and damn, I can't come up with one profound thought.. So, here are a few not so profound thoughts.
1) I don't think that I have I have personally ever seen a ghost. However, I do believe that their are those who can and do. I think I lack the special something others have that allow them to have this experience.
2) I believe that there are times, special times, that I can communicate with animals and certain people that others (professionals) have told me is not possible. I want to tell you about a time when I talked to German Shepherd, a specially trained guard dog. I was working in sales at the time. I was given an address to do a demonstration for water conditioning equipment, I had talked to the home owner, who gave me the directions, you have to remember that I am directionally challenged. Anyway when I talked to the home owner and got directions he told me that there were 2 dogs on the property, but that was o.k. and not to worry about it. When I turned into a long drivewy, way out in the middle of nowhere, I noticed a sign saying "Guard Dog On Duty...Beware" I continued up the driveway and the signs got larger and more ominous. I continued and finally saw the house. There were motorcycles parked there. I got out of my car and walked to side door. The house appeared to be empty but I knocked on the door. No one answered, I picked my display case and turned to walk away. I never seen or heard the dog, but I felt something take hold of the sleeve of my jacket. It was a very large King Shepherd. I was very , I want to say frightened but alarmed is an more accurate word. The dog didn't appear visious, it also gave no indiction of letting go of my sleeve. I began to talk to the dog. Finally I sat down on the grass, the dog still holding on to my sleeve, I talked to her about 15 minutes. I explained to her that I had gotten lost, and I was on her property by mistake. Eventually she let go of my sleeve and she sat with me. I told her I had to go back to my car, I had to leave now. I stood up and so did she. I bent down to pick up my case, she grabbed my sleeve again. I knew at that moment that she was willing to let me leave, but she didn't want me to take my case. So, I sat down again, so did she. I explained to her, like she was a human, that I had to take my case with me. This took another 5minutes of talking. I told her I was going now and I had to take my case with me. I stood again and picked my case. She stayed sitting. I picked up case and started walking to my car with my case in my hand. She walked beside me all the way to my car. I continued talking to her, explaining every move I was making, like "I am going to open the car door now and put my case inside," then I told her " I am getting inside the car now and driving off your property". When I was inside the car I had to turn it around to drive out. She stood where I left her. I opened the car window and said "goodbye girl". As I drove back down the long driveway I paid closer attention to the signs. They said "Guard Dog On Duty" "Enter At Your Own Risk". And other warnings.
I have never told anyone this story, mostly because I felt no one would ever believe me, I also felt embarrassed for getting lost. Looking back it now, so many years later, I feel it was a wonderfull, probably unbelievable experience. I am not sure I would believe it if someone told me this story. But it is true. it happened to me. I did not sit down to write this story, it just flowed out of me for some reason. It happened almost 25 years ago. I am glad that it did and that I finally was able to share it with you.
Thursday, May 26th, 2011.....7:01p.m.
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
"Wisdom Is Knowing The Right Path To Take...Integrity Is Taking It" M H McKee
I love this quote. I wish I could say that I always do it. Perhaps I have more wisdom than integrity. Perhaps we all do......nah, I just thought of a couple of people who have neither.
I have been unable to blog on my own computer since I arrived home from the City Of Kawartha Lakes. I don't know what is wrong with my own computer, actually I can do everything else on my computer, I just can't bring up my own blog. So, I am using my friends computer. I am so fortunate, I have good friends. I will add to this blog later this evening. Have places to go right now.
Wednesday, May 25th, 2011.....7:27p.m.
I have been unable to blog on my own computer since I arrived home from the City Of Kawartha Lakes. I don't know what is wrong with my own computer, actually I can do everything else on my computer, I just can't bring up my own blog. So, I am using my friends computer. I am so fortunate, I have good friends. I will add to this blog later this evening. Have places to go right now.
Wednesday, May 25th, 2011.....7:27p.m.
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Another Gem From CBC
I am sure that I have mentioned before that whenever I am in the car I listen to CBC. I always pickup the most amazing facts and quotes from that radio station. I really like tonights offering and want to share it with you, so here it is:
"I Never Would Never Have Seen It If I Hadn't Believed It".
Most of us at some time or another have heard and said "I wouldn't have believed if I hadn't seen it". It is my personal belief that we, me included, miss so much because we don't believe. We dismiss so many things, saying "No, that's impossible, I don't believe thats possible". And of course we make that statement into a self fulfulling prophesy. Probably going back to the beginning of time people have said "that will never happen, thats not possible". Most people in 1911 would not have believed that we could send machines and men to the moon and into space. However, even then, I bet there were some, who in their imagination saw space ships, maybe they even saw machines that you could print words on and in nano seconds have those same words appear on another persons machine anywhere in the world. I have lots more to say on this subject, but enough for tonight. Off to bed now.
Wednesday, May 18th, 2011............11:04p.m.
"I Never Would Never Have Seen It If I Hadn't Believed It".
Most of us at some time or another have heard and said "I wouldn't have believed if I hadn't seen it". It is my personal belief that we, me included, miss so much because we don't believe. We dismiss so many things, saying "No, that's impossible, I don't believe thats possible". And of course we make that statement into a self fulfulling prophesy. Probably going back to the beginning of time people have said "that will never happen, thats not possible". Most people in 1911 would not have believed that we could send machines and men to the moon and into space. However, even then, I bet there were some, who in their imagination saw space ships, maybe they even saw machines that you could print words on and in nano seconds have those same words appear on another persons machine anywhere in the world. I have lots more to say on this subject, but enough for tonight. Off to bed now.
Wednesday, May 18th, 2011............11:04p.m.
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
"Sing Like No One Is Listening, Dance Like No One Is watching, And Love Like You'll Never Get Hurt".
I am not sure who first spoke or wrote these words, but I saw them again today in a friends home and thought I would mention them in my blog tonight. I am not a good singer, I usually only do it when I am alone, in fact I only do it the car, when I am alone in the car. When I sing alone in the car I am not all that bad a singer. I don't dance much anymore either; my left knee wouldn't allow for a lot of dancing. I have always enjoyed watching dancing though. Some of my earliest memories with my babies are of me dancing with them. Usually just dancing around the kitchen because I felt such joy and pride to hold them in my arms. Sometimes I would dance ever so slowly with my babies when they sick or teething or cranky. Dancing with them seemed to soothe them and probably soothed me as well.
I remember all of my babies before they were a year old, when they were just pulling themselves up in the playpen or the crib, doing their own form of dancing to whatever music was playing. My children all seemed to be born with a sense of rhythm. I think all children are. When I danced with my babies I definately danced like no one was watching, most of the time no one was. I just danced, I didn't think if I was doing it right or wrong. There is no wrong way to dance with your baby. I sang to them also, and I sang like no one was listening. I sang to my babies before they were born and I danced with them still inside me.
Love like you'll never get hurt!!!! Well why not. We are all going to experience joy and pain in our lifetime, no matter how careful we are. There is no way to avoid or circumvent all the possibilities in life. So sure "Love Like You'll Never Get Hurt". The only way I know to avoid the hurt is not to love at all. And who wants to do that???
Evening Thoughts
Tuesday, May 17th, 2011...........10:41p.m.
I remember all of my babies before they were a year old, when they were just pulling themselves up in the playpen or the crib, doing their own form of dancing to whatever music was playing. My children all seemed to be born with a sense of rhythm. I think all children are. When I danced with my babies I definately danced like no one was watching, most of the time no one was. I just danced, I didn't think if I was doing it right or wrong. There is no wrong way to dance with your baby. I sang to them also, and I sang like no one was listening. I sang to my babies before they were born and I danced with them still inside me.
Love like you'll never get hurt!!!! Well why not. We are all going to experience joy and pain in our lifetime, no matter how careful we are. There is no way to avoid or circumvent all the possibilities in life. So sure "Love Like You'll Never Get Hurt". The only way I know to avoid the hurt is not to love at all. And who wants to do that???
Evening Thoughts
Tuesday, May 17th, 2011...........10:41p.m.
Monday, May 16, 2011
How Heavy Is it?
This was sent to me by a friend. Seeing as I am not feeling great tonight, I wanted to share it with you. It helped me, hope it helps you. Thank you Betty and Thank you Jim.
A young lady confidently walked around the room while leading and explaining stress management to an audience; with a raised glass of water, and everyone knew she was going to ask the ultimate question, 'half empty or half full?'..... she fooled them all... "How heavy is this glass of water?", she inquired with a smile.
Answers called out ranged from 8 oz. to 20 oz.
She replied, "The absolute weight doesn't matter. It depends on how long I hold it. If I hold it for a minute, that's not a problem. If I hold it for an hour, I'll have an ache in my right arm. If I hold it for a day, you'll have to call an ambulance. In each case it's the same weight, but the longer I hold it, the heavier it becomes." She continued, "and that's the way it is with stress. If we carry our burdens all the time, sooner or later, as the burden becomes increasingly heavy, we won't be able to carry on."
"As with the glass of water, you have to put it down for a while and rest before holding it again. When we're refreshed, we can carry on with the burden - holding stress longer and better each time practiced. So, as early in the evening as you can, put all your burdens down. Don't carry them through the evening and into the night... pick them up tomorrow.
Whatever burdens you're carrying now, let them down for a moment. Relax, pick them up later after you've rested. Life is short. Enjoy it and the now 'supposed' stress that you've conquered!"
1 * Accept the fact that some days you're the pigeon, and some days you're the statue!
2 * Always keep your words soft and sweet, just in case you have to eat them.
3 * Always read stuff that will make you look good if you die in the middle of it.
4 * Drive carefully... It's not only cars that can be recalled by their Maker..
5 * If you can't be kind, at least have the decency to be vague
6 * If you lend someone $20 and never see that person again, it was probably worth it..
7 * It may be that your sole purpose in life is simply to serve as a warning to others.
8 * Never buy a car you can't push.
9 * Never put both feet in your mouth at the same time, because then you won't have a leg to stand on.
10 * Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up and dance.
11 * Since it's the early worm that gets eaten by the bird, sleep late.
12 * The second mouse gets the cheese.
13 * When everything's coming your way, you're in the wrong lane.
14 * Birthdays are good for you. The more you have, the longer you live.
15 * You may be only one person in the world, but you may also be the world to one person.
16 * Some mistakes are too much fun to make only once.
17 * We could learn a lot from crayons. Some are sharp, some are pretty and some are dull. Some have weird names and all are different colors, but they all have to live in the same box.
18 * A truly happy person is one who can enjoy the scenery on a detour.
19 * Have an awesome day and know that someone has thought about you today.
20 * It was I, your friend!
*Save the earth..... It's the only planet with chocolate!
Monday, May 16th, 2011............10:42p.m.
Hope you enjoy this read, as much as I did !
It is worth it
A young lady confidently walked around the room while leading and explaining stress management to an audience; with a raised glass of water, and everyone knew she was going to ask the ultimate question, 'half empty or half full?'..... she fooled them all... "How heavy is this glass of water?", she inquired with a smile.
Answers called out ranged from 8 oz. to 20 oz.
She replied, "The absolute weight doesn't matter. It depends on how long I hold it. If I hold it for a minute, that's not a problem. If I hold it for an hour, I'll have an ache in my right arm. If I hold it for a day, you'll have to call an ambulance. In each case it's the same weight, but the longer I hold it, the heavier it becomes." She continued, "and that's the way it is with stress. If we carry our burdens all the time, sooner or later, as the burden becomes increasingly heavy, we won't be able to carry on."
"As with the glass of water, you have to put it down for a while and rest before holding it again. When we're refreshed, we can carry on with the burden - holding stress longer and better each time practiced. So, as early in the evening as you can, put all your burdens down. Don't carry them through the evening and into the night... pick them up tomorrow.
Whatever burdens you're carrying now, let them down for a moment. Relax, pick them up later after you've rested. Life is short. Enjoy it and the now 'supposed' stress that you've conquered!"
1 * Accept the fact that some days you're the pigeon, and some days you're the statue!
2 * Always keep your words soft and sweet, just in case you have to eat them.
3 * Always read stuff that will make you look good if you die in the middle of it.
4 * Drive carefully... It's not only cars that can be recalled by their Maker..
5 * If you can't be kind, at least have the decency to be vague
6 * If you lend someone $20 and never see that person again, it was probably worth it..
7 * It may be that your sole purpose in life is simply to serve as a warning to others.
8 * Never buy a car you can't push.
9 * Never put both feet in your mouth at the same time, because then you won't have a leg to stand on.
10 * Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up and dance.
11 * Since it's the early worm that gets eaten by the bird, sleep late.
12 * The second mouse gets the cheese.
13 * When everything's coming your way, you're in the wrong lane.
14 * Birthdays are good for you. The more you have, the longer you live.
15 * You may be only one person in the world, but you may also be the world to one person.
16 * Some mistakes are too much fun to make only once.
17 * We could learn a lot from crayons. Some are sharp, some are pretty and some are dull. Some have weird names and all are different colors, but they all have to live in the same box.
18 * A truly happy person is one who can enjoy the scenery on a detour.
19 * Have an awesome day and know that someone has thought about you today.
20 * It was I, your friend!
*Save the earth..... It's the only planet with chocolate!
Monday, May 16th, 2011............10:42p.m.
Saturday, May 14, 2011
Take Risks
That is the title of tomorrows message from my very favorite book. I don't normally read the next days message, but it is 11:20p.m. now so soon it will be tomorrow and I am only cheating by 40 minutes.
For the past 3 years I havn't taken many, if any risks, until very recently. Probably even before then I wouldn't be what anyone would call a big risk taker. I wanted guaranteed, written in blood assurances. Even then I would not always feel sure.
In my book it says "We cannot afford to keep ourselves paralized." And that is what fear does to me, it paralizes me. I can become afraid to make a move, let alone take a risk. Risking means being vulnerable and trusting someone. But not risking means almost being jailed. You are safe in your cell, with all of your thoughts locked inside your own head and I guess I needed to be that safe for awhile; but it is also lonely and isolating. And I didn't grow during that time. I didn't share ideas or feelings with anyone so of course I got no feedback. Lately, slowly but surely I am sharing feelings and ideas. Even doing this blog is a kind of leap of faith. At first I thought no one would ever read it, so that was safe; then I actually gave the address of the blog to a couple of people. That was a real act of faith for me. It was also taking a risk. And it was o.k. I feel o.k. about it, sometimes even good about it.
Saturday, May 14th, 2011..............11:36p.m.
For the past 3 years I havn't taken many, if any risks, until very recently. Probably even before then I wouldn't be what anyone would call a big risk taker. I wanted guaranteed, written in blood assurances. Even then I would not always feel sure.
In my book it says "We cannot afford to keep ourselves paralized." And that is what fear does to me, it paralizes me. I can become afraid to make a move, let alone take a risk. Risking means being vulnerable and trusting someone. But not risking means almost being jailed. You are safe in your cell, with all of your thoughts locked inside your own head and I guess I needed to be that safe for awhile; but it is also lonely and isolating. And I didn't grow during that time. I didn't share ideas or feelings with anyone so of course I got no feedback. Lately, slowly but surely I am sharing feelings and ideas. Even doing this blog is a kind of leap of faith. At first I thought no one would ever read it, so that was safe; then I actually gave the address of the blog to a couple of people. That was a real act of faith for me. It was also taking a risk. And it was o.k. I feel o.k. about it, sometimes even good about it.
Saturday, May 14th, 2011..............11:36p.m.
Friday, May 13, 2011
Friggatrishekaphobia (Fear Of Friday The 13th)
Well there is only 1 hour and 10 minutes left in this Friday the 13th, and it is only the only one in 2011 so I guess I will survive it. There are many things I am afraid of, probably many phobias I suffer from, but somehow Friday the 13th isn't one of them.
I am one of those of those weird people who are more afraid of living people than ghosts or dead ones. I have never been hurt in any way by a ghost, nor been betrayed or letdown by a dead person, to me these things have only ever been done by living people. Wednesday, February the 18th, 2008 was the last time that some very living people, tried and nearly succeeded in destroying me. Thanks again guys, just in case I forgot to do it then. Most of you have already reaped what you have sown and the rest of you surely will. Such is the way of Karma.
As for me, I live, I am loved and I am happy. I am surrounded by family and friends and loved ones. Because I know you and I have known you for years, I know you will never have these things.
Sleep Well. And Happy Friday The 13th.
Evening Thoughts
Friday, May 13th, 2011..............11:03p.m.
I am one of those of those weird people who are more afraid of living people than ghosts or dead ones. I have never been hurt in any way by a ghost, nor been betrayed or letdown by a dead person, to me these things have only ever been done by living people. Wednesday, February the 18th, 2008 was the last time that some very living people, tried and nearly succeeded in destroying me. Thanks again guys, just in case I forgot to do it then. Most of you have already reaped what you have sown and the rest of you surely will. Such is the way of Karma.
As for me, I live, I am loved and I am happy. I am surrounded by family and friends and loved ones. Because I know you and I have known you for years, I know you will never have these things.
Sleep Well. And Happy Friday The 13th.
Evening Thoughts
Friday, May 13th, 2011..............11:03p.m.
Thursday, May 12, 2011
A Quote By Alanis Morrisette
I had my hair done this afternoon and I forgot to take a book, so, I ended reading whatever was available in such places. This magazine had an interview with Alanis Morrisette and this is where I found the quote.
"I don't consider myself a human being having a spiritual experience, I consider myself a spiritual being having a human experience." I couldn't have said it better myself. The 70er I become the more in touch I am with my spirituality and the less important the physical becomes. This allows me to see life in an entirely different way and experience living much more fully and completely. How fortunate for her that this young woman realized this in her 30s.
Thoughts In The Afternoon
Thursday, May 12th, 2:30p.m.
"I don't consider myself a human being having a spiritual experience, I consider myself a spiritual being having a human experience." I couldn't have said it better myself. The 70er I become the more in touch I am with my spirituality and the less important the physical becomes. This allows me to see life in an entirely different way and experience living much more fully and completely. How fortunate for her that this young woman realized this in her 30s.
Thoughts In The Afternoon
Thursday, May 12th, 2:30p.m.
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Real Help
I have been away and unable to blog. I have missed it, yet find it difficult to start again. It was a wonderful week; full of family and people I love. Now I am going to have to re establish my routine and I want to do that slowly. Partly because I want to replay those days in my mind and my heart. The Granddaughter of My Soul, whom I spent time with while I was away, told me this story and I would like to share it with you.
There is this man who fallen into a very deep hole of depression and addiction. He is calling for help to passerbys. A Dr. walks by and hears him calling, he looks down into the hole, then he takes out his pad and writes a perscription which he throws down the hole to the man. The man continues to call for help. A man of the cloth walks by, he stops and looks down at the man then says I will pray for you, and walks on. Finally a man in work clothes and work boots hears the mans cries. He stops, then jumps down into the hole with the man. The man trapped in the hole said to him "why did you jump in with me? Now we are both trapped down here", the other man said "We are not trapped, I have been here before and I can show you the way out".
I guess you will either get it or you won't, but I wanted to share it with you anyway.
Wednesday, May 11, 2011....................10:10p.m.
There is this man who fallen into a very deep hole of depression and addiction. He is calling for help to passerbys. A Dr. walks by and hears him calling, he looks down into the hole, then he takes out his pad and writes a perscription which he throws down the hole to the man. The man continues to call for help. A man of the cloth walks by, he stops and looks down at the man then says I will pray for you, and walks on. Finally a man in work clothes and work boots hears the mans cries. He stops, then jumps down into the hole with the man. The man trapped in the hole said to him "why did you jump in with me? Now we are both trapped down here", the other man said "We are not trapped, I have been here before and I can show you the way out".
I guess you will either get it or you won't, but I wanted to share it with you anyway.
Wednesday, May 11, 2011....................10:10p.m.
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Things Left Unsaid
If I had to choose my favorite philospher is would be a toss up between Nietzsche and Dostoevsky. Tonight I have a quote by Dostoevsky. "Much unhappiness has come into the world because of bewilderment and things left unsaid."
This may not be his most profound quote, it isn't even my favorite, but it is the one that touched me tonight.
I have felt such bewilderment and sorrow when things were left unfinished, unsaid. I am aware that we can't take back words we have spoken, but a sincere "I'm sorry" can bring such comfort. When you look into the person's eyes and touch them and really mean it, then healing can happen. I need some of this healing, some of these words, and I need to say them to others. Knowing that is growth and I am grateful for my growth, painful as it sometimes can be.
Tuesday, May 3rd, 2011...........11:23p.m.
This may not be his most profound quote, it isn't even my favorite, but it is the one that touched me tonight.
I have felt such bewilderment and sorrow when things were left unfinished, unsaid. I am aware that we can't take back words we have spoken, but a sincere "I'm sorry" can bring such comfort. When you look into the person's eyes and touch them and really mean it, then healing can happen. I need some of this healing, some of these words, and I need to say them to others. Knowing that is growth and I am grateful for my growth, painful as it sometimes can be.
Tuesday, May 3rd, 2011...........11:23p.m.
Monday, May 2, 2011
A Tolstoy Quote For Our Election Day
"Government is an association of men who do violence to the rest of us". I hope this isn't the case with whoever gets in tonight. Physical violence isn't the only kind of of violence that Government can impose on us. Poverty, hunger and lack of health care has been the violence that I have witnessed most often in the past terms of Government. As A 70 Something Woman I want enough to not worry about tomorrrow or next month, I also want to know that my children will have enough when they have finished their working time. And for my grandchildren I want opportunity, the opportunity for them to rasie their children, feed them well and be able to educate them. Thats not a lot to ask from someone who spent more than 50 of her 70 something years working and paying for the Government that we have had.
Election Night Thoughts
Monday, May 2, 2011............11:31p.m.
Election Night Thoughts
Monday, May 2, 2011............11:31p.m.
Sunday, May 1, 2011
Fitting In
This seems to be a Universal need or at least desire. One of the good things of being 70 Something, there are actually many, is that it is no longer nearly as important as it once was. In the past I have found myself wanting to fit in with people that I didn't even particularly like, but thought I should like, mostly because others seemed to like them, What a wonderful freedom to no longer have to impress anyone. To allow myself to just be me.
I recall a couple of decades ago sitting in meetings and when a vote or a show of hands was taken I would look around and see what everyone was doing and do the same, There were a couple of reasons for this; one, I thought everyone knew more than me, and two, I didn't want to be singled out as the only dissenter. Now I find I have no problem saying I think that is a bunch of crap, if that is what I really feel. Normally though I would just say "do whatever you want, because really how important is it?" And unless it was really important to me I would let it go at that. The 70er I get the more I realize what is really important and what is just someones ego on a trip.
Evening Thoughts
Sunday, May 1st, 2011...............9:23p.m.
I recall a couple of decades ago sitting in meetings and when a vote or a show of hands was taken I would look around and see what everyone was doing and do the same, There were a couple of reasons for this; one, I thought everyone knew more than me, and two, I didn't want to be singled out as the only dissenter. Now I find I have no problem saying I think that is a bunch of crap, if that is what I really feel. Normally though I would just say "do whatever you want, because really how important is it?" And unless it was really important to me I would let it go at that. The 70er I get the more I realize what is really important and what is just someones ego on a trip.
Evening Thoughts
Sunday, May 1st, 2011...............9:23p.m.
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